Of my Master's Program! I finished my last class on Wednesday. I am sure I was in about the easiest Master's Program--not that it diminished the accomplishment, but it certainly made it possible. I am just happy that it is over.
Everyone kept asking me while I was in school if I planned to work after I graduated. My answer was always yes! Then the economy happened, and I happen to live in one of the most fiscally irresponsible states. They cut many programs that were beneficial, but I guess expendable. They are still behind on their bills, and when the state didn't pay for the text books, they sent the bills to the districts. Almost all school districts are carrying debt because the state has not allocated the taxes to the districts.
So I'm left to wonder--why did the Lord want me to make a big push this last year and finish? I could have dragged this out another year--even two--and my kids would have been older when I student taught. My thought was that it was for the job--this would be a great time to find one--all teacher's contracts were up in every district--which would mean a lot of retirements. The perfect job was just waiting for me. This often happens to me, I get a little bit of inspiration, and I interpret the inspiration to mean what I want it to mean, when perhaps there are other reasons, better reasons, higher purposes. At least the Lord is patient with me, at least He knows I will follow the inspiration, then when it doesn't work out like I thought it was supposed to, He allows me to figure it out after the fact. Maybe I should just follow the inspiration without trying to figure out the "why" or what will I get out of this, and just do it. I certainly don't know all the reasons, and I am sure their are too many for my little brain and small perspective to understand. So I don't work next year--even though I thought that is what was "supposed" to happen. I feel I am supposed to keep trying to look for a job--I don't know why, and if I try to believe it's because I will land a great job . . . I might be wrong. I need to walk into the darkness--trusting the Lord. A lesson I am sure I will have to keep learning everyday.
Other news:
Luke: had a great time at day camp. It was three days of hiking in a creek. We are trying to have him build his endurance for hiking--this did it. The people who run the camp are wonderful. They are so down to earth, and love nature. We will try to do it again next summer. He also did soccer camp--which he loved! He wants to do soccer in the fall. It should be fun, and something I think we can do!
Anakin: Was very sad when Luke went to his nature class by himself. Because they are so close in age, I try to find activities that fit both their age groups. This one did not! As we dropped Luke off for an all day hike (9 to 3) Anakin was very sad and said, "I want my brother." I responded, "Do you need a hug." Then with a choked up voice, he said, "No, I need my brother." I immediately drove to my sister's house, and he stayed and played with his cousin for the day! We also climbed up a rock wall on Saturday! It's our goal to make it to the top by the end of the summer--I am sure he will make it, but me . . . We had a great time together. When we got home he picked a flower for me. I love having one on one time with my kids!
GG: finished her last speech therapy. She has aged out of the program. The speech therapist couldn't believe I know all the sound cues. When the speech therapist first came, he said his goal was to teach me how to work with her. I took that to heart, and now I think I can basically do what he did. He did teach me how to work with her! She has one more appointment with the OT. I am going to learn the brushing technique. It is supposed to help with her sensory issues. I will need to do it every two hours every day for one month.
She is going to public preschool next year. Because of the cuts, it will only be two mornings a week. She will receive one hour of speech therapy and one hour of Occupational Therapy. I don't know how she'll get the socialization ect that she needs in those two days when they are always pulling her out of class. At least it will be a set schedule at one location. Right now we're running around all over the place for her to receive her different types of therapy. I think I would like to find her a private preschool for the other two mornings. She does so well in a structured environment--me--I'm not structured. Anakin--has afternoon kindergarten. I'm not sure if I will try to have that changed. He really wants to have Luke's kindergarten teacher, and I am afraid to ask for too much. Maybe I need to call the principal and talk to her about the situation. She is a wonderful administrator, so she will try her best. They are starting all day kindergarten for fifty kids--which they will pull by lottery. If they call me, what do I say . . . This parenting thing is hard!
Today, I am at peace with this whole I don't have a job, why question. Hopefully it will last. Thankfully, I have the gospel in my life that allows me to know I don't know everything, nor will I in this life. It is a faith-based work. I just need to keep building my faith!
